Hello.
こんばわ。今、私は留学生として日本で住んでいます。実は、ここは生活は何も特別じゃないと思います。それで、マレーシアで家族と友達は会いたいです。
I'm bad in Japanese despite me learning it for almost 6 months. What a failure.
First, hello world! It's been a while, my friend. I guess handling a blog really wasn't for me, who are so fickle when it comes to being loyal to social networking that needs me to wreck my brain. Haha.
Anyhow, dear my future-self to be that will probably not be reading this, how are you? Are you happy with what you have accomplished? I hope you did because you wasted a lot of money to come to Japan just to studying making buns and cakes, my dearest self. Make me proud. And our parents. Our, ha.
I cannot express verbally how grateful I am to my family who, despite everything else (aka the world in general because shits happened) that seemed to be against this, supported me in my wild dream to learn bakery. There are times I wondered if it's worth it, this all. To spend so much money for my own sake. For something as petty as learning bakery.
Often than not, I asked myself why I can't be better in studying so that I can make my parents proud. To make the money spent worth every pennies. Sometimes I regret that I was so arrogant back then, back when I think that I don't own the world nothing. That I can't be force to do otherwise than my own decision and whims. And now I wish I can do better. It's not that I don't like the idea of being a baker or anything, but it pains me a little every time I think of the money spent in this. I was so scared I will makes it all go to waste because I'm a useless person who can't even trust myself when it comes to important things like this. I'm so afraid that I will failed to make anything out of so many goods that was given to me. And the expectation.
I think that letting your child to live by themselves in a faraway country will really help their growth. I have seen many types of people that come along with me to study here in Japan. I have a friend, a pair of siblings - brother and sister - whose ambition are alike to me. Even when it was myself alone, I thought of the very expensive school fees that scared me, yet their parents send both of them here to study that very course that I'm going to.
Then it struck me, yeah? That parents are so, so wonderful to us.
It kinda makes me teared up sometimes, that the quote saying "You don't know what you lost until you lost it" really means something to me. Not that I lost anything. What I lost is the time passed behind me. I think in every child, there will always be a moment when they reflect back on their attitude towards their parents that thought, oh fuck why the fuck did I do what I did fuck I should do better, be better.
And I'm having that moment right now, here in this faraway place where I couldn't even speak to my parents once a month because we're awkward family with emotional constipation problem. I have always known I'm loved even when it's not shown. But really, we don't appreciate what we have when we still have them. And right now, I'm so full of immerse gratitude towards them that I wish I could be better. Do better. So that I don't disappoint them. To prove to them I am worth every love they pour into.
They said, a parent's love is unconditional. I agree wholehearted and for that very reason, I want to prove that 'unconditional love' is not just another convenient expression used for those who don't appreciate their parents' love simply because they don't demand any thing back.
I'm offering to them. And I damn well make sure I give the very best.
And, you, my future-self, I hope you remember what you write many years ago, today, and that I hope if against anything, you still remember this blog and this post, I hope you do myself and yourself justice in living a fulling life so full of love and support,
Yours,
TPL. 20 yrs old. Opps
What.
OH MY GOD.
I'm a normal girl with a normal life and with a normal, obsessive love for Tom Hiddleston because he's too perfect to not be loved but
FUCK JAMES MCAVOY WHAT ARE YOU DOING TO ME. I DID NOT JUST BECAME SOME WEIRD, PERVERSE YOUNG GIRL THAT WAS LUSTING OVER YOUR LIPS.
No. You're ruining my life yet I love you so. I really ought to find a way to stop myself from looking at your lips, OR YOU, but no because you're so lovely to look at and so beautiful and I just.. NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.
I BLAME THE CHERIK FANDOM FOR THIS. YOU'RE ALL PERVERT WHO TAKE PERVERSE SATISFACTION IN DETAILING HIS LIPS IN EVERY SINGLE FKING FIC OUT THERE AND.. AND.. I give up.
A story
Tuesday, February 11, 2014 | 9:33 AM |
0 lettersThere was this really sad story that I read back then. It's a manga or comic, I'm not sure
but it was allocated at a stream in a country side. I think the kids were from the city that went back to the countryside to visit their grandparents and they stumbled upon this stream. They met this kid and the kid said he can't leave this place, or something. There was some thing he regretted doing or something he lost in the stream. Thus, making him unable to rest in peace in hope to alleviate the regret. The the city kids befriended the ghost. Then one day, the city kids told their parent they met this boy back at the stream and the father was shocked because that was his childhood friend who died at the stream, drowned for whatever reason.
I don't really remember much but at the end the ghost boy manage to find peace and rest in peace finally and the father was crying and soon after so many years, the body of the boy that was drowned years ago suddenly be found.
Okay, wow, my writing is not that impressive. It can't even catch the feeling at all but in me, this story has so much warmth even though I have broken fragments of memories of it. It must be a very nice and touching story. ;___;
The Return of the Fabulous Me.
Monday, February 10, 2014 | 10:44 AM |
0 lettersLOL NO.
I DON'T HAVE SHAME, DON'T I?
Anyways, hola to the invisible viewer. Why am I doing this omg.
I've been leaving this thing coughblogcough for so long and I really don't feel like getting back anyways.
It used to be a place for me to vent my anger for meaningless matters.
As of now, I'm just too tired to type down my anger when I'm already losing it. LOL
Anyways, I don't see the point in writing to no one. Maybe it's a perfect place for a silent moment to release the pent up frustration but it don't lasts and in the end, it just makes everything lonelier.
Yo
Sunday, September 29, 2013 | 11:36 AM |
0 lettersOh wow.. it's been a while since I last ever access this blog.
No.
I did not abandon this post
More like I kinda lost interest and I have run out of things to rant
or more like its kinda lonely and stupid ranting here..
It's boring when you vent your anger or scream or whatever and no one respond.
Wow, that's lonely.
Oh and this post here right now, random I know after so long is to tell myself and EVERYONE OUT THERE THAT
GODDAMN IT! If you LIKE or LOVE that person,
be it someone you know,
OR MORE SO SOMEONE YOU DON'T LIKE, LIKE IDOL OR CELEBRITIES,
You don't go mess up their life
or disturb them in their privacy
or ruined their day with their family!
GET A FKING LIFE OKAY!?
AND SERIOUSLY, YOU DON'T GO THREATENED THEM TOO
LIKE, "I don't know what I will do next time..."
Oh great you fking shit with a mess up mind and no life,
let see if you will say that again if I ever met you. I swear I will punch your throat too.
And after I did, I will sweetly tell you, dear you motherfker bastard, I don't know what I will do next time if you did this again.
GIVE THEM RESPECT! Just because they're idol doesn't give you the reason to make their life living hell. They don't owe you! What if someone suddenly becomes your stalker even though you're no celebrity, maybe they have the same sick mind like yours with the tendencies to stalk someone else. Holy shit, imagine they follow you to your brother's wedding and send you creepy msgs at night or witheld calls over and over again. Does that creep yoou out? Does that makes you uncomfortable?
Did it? I bet it did. So stop. Don't waste your life. Live your life happily.
Loving yourself and others. Respect yourself and others.
Fix that mind of yours. It's disturbing. Shame on you.
Miracles
So I was reading this Hana To Akuma manga yet again.
God, it's still hurts a lot reading that manga.
Rereading the manga only let me see what I had not thus making it harderrrrrrrrrr.. Hurrrrrr..;__;
Together Foreverm Hana said during a chapter for the moon watching. Every 150, that kind of moon will appear once and it will let two people who watch the moon tgt to be forever together always.
And Vivi was like, it doesn't hurt to hope for miracles. A together forever with a human.
NO BITCHES. WHY DIDN'T THE MIRACLE WORK OUT? WHY? ;________________;
THEIR 1ST WIN
WE ARE SO PROUD OF YOU!
EXO, WE ARE ONE! Yes, we are!
I'm sure right now, every Exotic is having some trouble, torn between to laugh or to cry. ;A;
Our babies Exo had their 1st win in MBank today! 130614.
A memorable day!
I almost cry when Suho was sobbing and his speech become incoherent. He tried and tried but his voice chocked up. He was so proud of us, as us to them!
And to those bastards that accused Suho of being fake and acting crying, DUCK YOU. YES. DUCK YOU. CAUSE I'M WAYYY TO GENTLE AND KIND to directly scold that, unlike someone.
Just so you know, that guy trained for 7 years just for this moment. He has every right to cry. Every right to be shedding tears and be thankful. You don't know him. You don't get to judge him, okay.
Then Chen chen, I don't know if this is true since I saw other people say and no prove whatsoever, about you holding your tears because you think you don't deserve to cry because of the short training time.
Chen chen ah, do know that you have a gorgeous voice. The vice so strong and plentiful and soft is by far so rare. I am glad you're here in Exo, in the group I have come to love. I am so happy you're here singing your part in the song, making me laugh and had me guessing, Is this Chen Chen voice? It is right? I could never mistaken your voice for anyone's. So believe that you deserve everything you have and will be yours from today onwards. Cry if you want, laugh as you pleased. We will stay with you and cry and laugh alongside with you.
To Jonginnie, you sexy slash adorable maknae. You don't have to hide your tears. Don't be ashamed of yourself for shedding tears. It's okay, because we're here crying with you too okay. We may not feel as much a par to what you might feel, the overwhelming sense but we know, okay. So don't hide. Don't shadow yourself behind your peers, don't wipe away the tears before we see it.
Just, come here. ;)
Lay~ My xing xing, you've done well in holding back. I didn't believe for a second you're so calm. During last year billboard award, you cried so hard, more than my cry baby Panda. Then I heard that you started crying when you opened the door to your dressing room. You cried so much, they say.
I wanted to hug you and tell you that, congratulation! It's okay to cry baby, share the tears with us.
AND TO THE REST OF THE EXO THAT I DON'T KNOW IF YOU LIL SHIT CRY OR NOT, Just know that we're always here to share everything with you okay! When you break, we will piece you back and support you. When you soar, we will be your wings!
Love, Me.
Hello.
こんばわ。今、私は留学生として日本で住んでいます。実は、ここは生活は何も特別じゃないと思います。それで、マレーシアで家族と友達は会いたいです。
I'm bad in Japanese despite me learning it for almost 6 months. What a failure.
First, hello world! It's been a while, my friend. I guess handling a blog really wasn't for me, who are so fickle when it comes to being loyal to social networking that needs me to wreck my brain. Haha.
Anyhow, dear my future-self to be that will probably not be reading this, how are you? Are you happy with what you have accomplished? I hope you did because you wasted a lot of money to come to Japan just to studying making buns and cakes, my dearest self. Make me proud. And our parents. Our, ha.
I cannot express verbally how grateful I am to my family who, despite everything else (aka the world in general because shits happened) that seemed to be against this, supported me in my wild dream to learn bakery. There are times I wondered if it's worth it, this all. To spend so much money for my own sake. For something as petty as learning bakery.
Often than not, I asked myself why I can't be better in studying so that I can make my parents proud. To make the money spent worth every pennies. Sometimes I regret that I was so arrogant back then, back when I think that I don't own the world nothing. That I can't be force to do otherwise than my own decision and whims. And now I wish I can do better. It's not that I don't like the idea of being a baker or anything, but it pains me a little every time I think of the money spent in this. I was so scared I will makes it all go to waste because I'm a useless person who can't even trust myself when it comes to important things like this. I'm so afraid that I will failed to make anything out of so many goods that was given to me. And the expectation.
I think that letting your child to live by themselves in a faraway country will really help their growth. I have seen many types of people that come along with me to study here in Japan. I have a friend, a pair of siblings - brother and sister - whose ambition are alike to me. Even when it was myself alone, I thought of the very expensive school fees that scared me, yet their parents send both of them here to study that very course that I'm going to.
Then it struck me, yeah? That parents are so, so wonderful to us.
It kinda makes me teared up sometimes, that the quote saying "You don't know what you lost until you lost it" really means something to me. Not that I lost anything. What I lost is the time passed behind me. I think in every child, there will always be a moment when they reflect back on their attitude towards their parents that thought, oh fuck why the fuck did I do what I did fuck I should do better, be better.
And I'm having that moment right now, here in this faraway place where I couldn't even speak to my parents once a month because we're awkward family with emotional constipation problem. I have always known I'm loved even when it's not shown. But really, we don't appreciate what we have when we still have them. And right now, I'm so full of immerse gratitude towards them that I wish I could be better. Do better. So that I don't disappoint them. To prove to them I am worth every love they pour into.
They said, a parent's love is unconditional. I agree wholehearted and for that very reason, I want to prove that 'unconditional love' is not just another convenient expression used for those who don't appreciate their parents' love simply because they don't demand any thing back.
I'm offering to them. And I damn well make sure I give the very best.
And, you, my future-self, I hope you remember what you write many years ago, today, and that I hope if against anything, you still remember this blog and this post, I hope you do myself and yourself justice in living a fulling life so full of love and support,
Yours,
TPL. 20 yrs old. Opps
What.
OH MY GOD.
I'm a normal girl with a normal life and with a normal, obsessive love for Tom Hiddleston because he's too perfect to not be loved but
FUCK JAMES MCAVOY WHAT ARE YOU DOING TO ME. I DID NOT JUST BECAME SOME WEIRD, PERVERSE YOUNG GIRL THAT WAS LUSTING OVER YOUR LIPS.
No. You're ruining my life yet I love you so. I really ought to find a way to stop myself from looking at your lips, OR YOU, but no because you're so lovely to look at and so beautiful and I just.. NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.
I BLAME THE CHERIK FANDOM FOR THIS. YOU'RE ALL PERVERT WHO TAKE PERVERSE SATISFACTION IN DETAILING HIS LIPS IN EVERY SINGLE FKING FIC OUT THERE AND.. AND.. I give up.
A story
Tuesday, February 11, 2014 | 9:33 AM |
0 lettersThere was this really sad story that I read back then. It's a manga or comic, I'm not sure
but it was allocated at a stream in a country side. I think the kids were from the city that went back to the countryside to visit their grandparents and they stumbled upon this stream. They met this kid and the kid said he can't leave this place, or something. There was some thing he regretted doing or something he lost in the stream. Thus, making him unable to rest in peace in hope to alleviate the regret. The the city kids befriended the ghost. Then one day, the city kids told their parent they met this boy back at the stream and the father was shocked because that was his childhood friend who died at the stream, drowned for whatever reason.
I don't really remember much but at the end the ghost boy manage to find peace and rest in peace finally and the father was crying and soon after so many years, the body of the boy that was drowned years ago suddenly be found.
Okay, wow, my writing is not that impressive. It can't even catch the feeling at all but in me, this story has so much warmth even though I have broken fragments of memories of it. It must be a very nice and touching story. ;___;
The Return of the Fabulous Me.
Monday, February 10, 2014 | 10:44 AM |
0 lettersLOL NO.
I DON'T HAVE SHAME, DON'T I?
Anyways, hola to the invisible viewer. Why am I doing this omg.
I've been leaving this thing coughblogcough for so long and I really don't feel like getting back anyways.
It used to be a place for me to vent my anger for meaningless matters.
As of now, I'm just too tired to type down my anger when I'm already losing it. LOL
Anyways, I don't see the point in writing to no one. Maybe it's a perfect place for a silent moment to release the pent up frustration but it don't lasts and in the end, it just makes everything lonelier.
Yo
Sunday, September 29, 2013 | 11:36 AM |
0 lettersOh wow.. it's been a while since I last ever access this blog.
No.
I did not abandon this post
More like I kinda lost interest and I have run out of things to rant
or more like its kinda lonely and stupid ranting here..
It's boring when you vent your anger or scream or whatever and no one respond.
Wow, that's lonely.
Oh and this post here right now, random I know after so long is to tell myself and EVERYONE OUT THERE THAT
GODDAMN IT! If you LIKE or LOVE that person,
be it someone you know,
OR MORE SO SOMEONE YOU DON'T LIKE, LIKE IDOL OR CELEBRITIES,
You don't go mess up their life
or disturb them in their privacy
or ruined their day with their family!
GET A FKING LIFE OKAY!?
AND SERIOUSLY, YOU DON'T GO THREATENED THEM TOO
LIKE, "I don't know what I will do next time..."
Oh great you fking shit with a mess up mind and no life,
let see if you will say that again if I ever met you. I swear I will punch your throat too.
And after I did, I will sweetly tell you, dear you motherfker bastard, I don't know what I will do next time if you did this again.
GIVE THEM RESPECT! Just because they're idol doesn't give you the reason to make their life living hell. They don't owe you! What if someone suddenly becomes your stalker even though you're no celebrity, maybe they have the same sick mind like yours with the tendencies to stalk someone else. Holy shit, imagine they follow you to your brother's wedding and send you creepy msgs at night or witheld calls over and over again. Does that creep yoou out? Does that makes you uncomfortable?
Did it? I bet it did. So stop. Don't waste your life. Live your life happily.
Loving yourself and others. Respect yourself and others.
Fix that mind of yours. It's disturbing. Shame on you.
Miracles
So I was reading this Hana To Akuma manga yet again.
God, it's still hurts a lot reading that manga.
Rereading the manga only let me see what I had not thus making it harderrrrrrrrrr.. Hurrrrrr..;__;
Together Foreverm Hana said during a chapter for the moon watching. Every 150, that kind of moon will appear once and it will let two people who watch the moon tgt to be forever together always.
And Vivi was like, it doesn't hurt to hope for miracles. A together forever with a human.
NO BITCHES. WHY DIDN'T THE MIRACLE WORK OUT? WHY? ;________________;
THEIR 1ST WIN
WE ARE SO PROUD OF YOU!
EXO, WE ARE ONE! Yes, we are!
I'm sure right now, every Exotic is having some trouble, torn between to laugh or to cry. ;A;
Our babies Exo had their 1st win in MBank today! 130614.
A memorable day!
I almost cry when Suho was sobbing and his speech become incoherent. He tried and tried but his voice chocked up. He was so proud of us, as us to them!
And to those bastards that accused Suho of being fake and acting crying, DUCK YOU. YES. DUCK YOU. CAUSE I'M WAYYY TO GENTLE AND KIND to directly scold that, unlike someone.
Just so you know, that guy trained for 7 years just for this moment. He has every right to cry. Every right to be shedding tears and be thankful. You don't know him. You don't get to judge him, okay.
Then Chen chen, I don't know if this is true since I saw other people say and no prove whatsoever, about you holding your tears because you think you don't deserve to cry because of the short training time.
Chen chen ah, do know that you have a gorgeous voice. The vice so strong and plentiful and soft is by far so rare. I am glad you're here in Exo, in the group I have come to love. I am so happy you're here singing your part in the song, making me laugh and had me guessing, Is this Chen Chen voice? It is right? I could never mistaken your voice for anyone's. So believe that you deserve everything you have and will be yours from today onwards. Cry if you want, laugh as you pleased. We will stay with you and cry and laugh alongside with you.
To Jonginnie, you sexy slash adorable maknae. You don't have to hide your tears. Don't be ashamed of yourself for shedding tears. It's okay, because we're here crying with you too okay. We may not feel as much a par to what you might feel, the overwhelming sense but we know, okay. So don't hide. Don't shadow yourself behind your peers, don't wipe away the tears before we see it.
Just, come here. ;)
Lay~ My xing xing, you've done well in holding back. I didn't believe for a second you're so calm. During last year billboard award, you cried so hard, more than my cry baby Panda. Then I heard that you started crying when you opened the door to your dressing room. You cried so much, they say.
I wanted to hug you and tell you that, congratulation! It's okay to cry baby, share the tears with us.
AND TO THE REST OF THE EXO THAT I DON'T KNOW IF YOU LIL SHIT CRY OR NOT, Just know that we're always here to share everything with you okay! When you break, we will piece you back and support you. When you soar, we will be your wings!
Love, Me.
Hello lovelies, I don't know what to say about myself.. 
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